I’ll never forget that look on her face – frustration, hurt and desperation. She was clearly hurt, I could tell from the expression on her face. And that expression keeps haunting me until now. I didn’t mean to hurt her like that and it was too late to realize it was a poor joke. I feel terribly sorry for having attempted such an act – a foolish one at that. It has truly let her down. And for the same reason, I promised myself I will never let her down henceforth, never ever again. I must ask her to forgive me this time.
That fateful day as I was going home, as expected, she was with her mother. They were evidently waiting for me near the public Zangdopelri. She was lost in thought. I didn’t know what she was thinking, but was looking closely at the pigeons feeding on the ground. As I approached them, I talked with her mother for a while and then she saw me. But I didn’t look at her at all and pretended not to see her. She saw me – I could tell from the corner of my eyes. I could read smile on her face.
But as I walked away, I could observe the expression on her face. And that’s how she became so hurt. She blushed beat-root red. She craned her neck as I disappeared behind the pillars and steps.
And immediately I returned my steps towards the duo- her mother and her. I wanted to promise her never to leave her like that. As I extended my hand to her, I begged sorry to my seven month-old daughter and she was extremely happy to forgive me.